From Mr. Josh

your birthday in 2006

Oh stinky, happy birthday my angel!!!!

I have just woken up and now in both London and Japan (and here), it is
truly your birthday, meaning that you have made 28 complete rotations
around
the sun! Oh stinky, how I miss you this morning. Last night I
couldn't sleep
when I went to bed. It's not that I didn't try to sleep. I tried away
and I
lay there and I imagined holding you in my arms and I imagined us in
beachy
head and in the pyrenees and singing daisy daisy on the canal and
kissing
you a hundred times on your cheek and your pushing me away a little
bit and
saying STINKY! Oh stinky, I did I did I did, I really did.

Oh stinky! It's your birthday and I wish I could be with you all day,
giving
you a hundred million kisses and hugs and even a bite on the bum and
you'll
say STINKY! DON'T ALWAYS BITING ME ON THE BUM! Oh stinky, I love you
so so
much you cannot imagine it. It's like every part of me is going to
explode.

Oh stinky! Please take care of yourself today. Do wonderful things.
Go to
the tate modern. Go for a stroll along the river and think how
wonderful our
life is.

I think last night I was a little distracted by the housing issue
because I
guess I was really hoping for us to have our love nest all nice and
ready
for my return, and sometimes when I couldn't sleep it gave me great
comfort
to imagine us all alone mumbling and jumbling around in our little
nesteroo.
Oh stinky!

But then when I realise that as soon as we're back we can find a little
place for us to move and a little nest for our love, I felt so
excited and
relieved.

I just want to tell you how much joy you bring to my life, how much
meaning,
how when I think of you I never feel alone and whenever I imagine
your smile
I smile (I can't help it, I just do, a great joyful grin creeps
across my
face as the happiness begins warm in my chest and comes up to my lips
and
forces its expression there). I want to tell you how each and every
day your
friendship makes me feel so safe and so valuable and so happy. Please be
good to yourself. Please take care of yourself. Please look both ways
and
never gawk around.

You really are the greatest and most wonderful person I could
imagine, the
greatest thing that ever happened to me, my best friend, my reason for
living. If I could dedicate my life as though it were one great
complex work
(like the time we discussed a hypothetical documentary where somebody is
filmed in real time, and it's as much a sacrifice as a privilege to
watch
the resulting film, because one must sacrifice one's own life to
share time
with the person being filmed), well if my life were one enormous
multi-faceted work, it would be an understatement to say that it
dedicated
to you. It is all yours, for you, of you, with you, and even by you.
I love
you. I will stay with you my whole life, and always love you. If I could
better express this love by ripping off all my clothes and running
down the
motorway, or swimming home to you in england, or screaming it out at
the top
of my lungs hoping the sound would bounce off the moon and reach you in
London, oh stinky I would I would I would.

Please have a wonderful birthday!

I love you so so much. I attach a few pictures so you remember us
together
on your birthday morning.

Mister stinky A.K.A. mister doodlebird A.K.A. "stinks".